The Art & Poetry of Mary Coleman

I am struggling to believe in free will lately. I think our fates are pre-determined and we don’t have much choice in the matter. What is meant to be is meant to be and will happen no matter how hard we fight it. Sometimes I wonder if that means there is no such thing as a bad person, just a person living out a terrible fate, and it makes me glad that I am not prone to being a rotten person. It doesn’t allow me to put much faith in the idea that people can change though. Maybe those who are ill tempered who do seemingly go through a transformation, were just destined to become different in a positive way and it wasn’t really a matter of choice.

But then here I am setting New Year’s resolutions and altering my behavior in ways I think are for the better. Does that mean I made the decision to change, or was it just the right moment for those changes to happen in the course of time?

To-do-list

1. Brush dog’s teeth, water plants, breakfast, get exercise clothes on
2. Write poem
3. Draw
4. Jog for 5 miles with a friend
5. Dressed/shower
6. Laundry
7. Make muffins
8. Take dog on a walk
9. Water orchids
10. Put laundry away
11. Cook dinner
12. Play video game
13. Go on Instagram
14. Read two chapters
15. Meditate