Today I did an hour of painting. I finished the feet of both the suited figures. It was quite an enjoyable hour and I listened to Mansfield Park on Audible while I painted. Tomorrow I will tackle the legs of the left figure.
I managed to go on Instagram yesterday and this morning (another New Year’s resolution). It was a little easier this morning. The first time back in a long time is really anxiety provoking but the more I do it, the less anxious about it I am. Currently I have 1010 followers and I follow around 500 people, but I don’t really want to grow much bigger than that. It would require me to follow a lot more people and I feel it’s hard enough to keep up with the ones I already do follow. It’s nice to interact with other artists and if there are thousands to keep up with it becomes much less personal.
What do you complain about the most?
Anxiety and panic attacks hands down. They are ever enduring and persistent. Worse than psychosis because the psychosis is well controlled with medication. I can’t really take medicine for anxiety (SSRI’s are off the table and I can’t only take lorazepam sparingly). It would be nice if my therapist shared more behavioral coping strategies with me. We talk about anxiety and panic attacks, but she’s not very helpful in recommending ways to combat it.
Schedule today:
Water plants,brush dog’s teeth (couldn’t because I had a cut on my hand and I didn’t want to get dog slobber in it),InstagramDressed/shower/wash hairTherapy appointmentBreakfast (morning eating window ends) and RitalinPaintMeditate and take the dog on a walk- Prep dinner
- Pick up painting from gallery
- Cook dinner
- Read the rest of Jane Eyre – I keep meaning to do this before bedtime but I keep getting panic attacks at night and have to combat them and don’t end up having time to read. Maybe tonight I will finally finish this book.
The Art & Poetry of Mary Coleman 
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